I was talking with a dear friend the other day. We’re both relatively new to running our own small business and this is what she said, “There are times when you need to work in your business, and then there are times when you need to work on your business.” You see, they don’t teach you how to run a business in chiropractic school. There were a few classes where we were taught to envision our practice, figure out what we wanted it to look like and what kind of people we’d see, yadda yadda yadda. I was never told that I would need liability insurance, unemployment insurance, and that signing a business lease requires a 3 month security deposit.
Amidst all the unexpected expenses there are the ever looming student loan payments that just keep getting bigger and bigger! How do people handle it? When I was first turned on to chiropractic I felt a passion that I’ve never felt before. It was as if I had woken up to the biggest secret in the world and all I wanted was to share it! This passion could not be quelled. I can recall a time I was shopping with my mom and I saw a blood donation bus in the parking lot. Long story short, my mother finds me on this bus and asks me why am I donating my blood? My response: “Chiropractic is in my blood! My love for it runs through my veins and now it will run through someone else’s veins!” The look on everyone’s face was priceless. My mom just rolled her eyes and told me to hurry up because she wanted to leave. My family is quirky in the sense that they encourage me by trying to discourage me. My dad would constantly tell me that I was too small and weak to adjust someone of his size. My mother would tell me that if I wanted to go to chiropractic school I’d have to take out student loans. Even my grandmother told me I shouldn’t be a chiropractor! My grandmother, who always encouraged me, practically begged me not to become a chiropractor, because they’re just too weird!
No one could understand how much in love I fell with chiropractic. They couldn’t fathom the passion that would inspire other chiropractors to adjust people despite facing arrest for practicing medicine without a license. Imagine, getting arrested, going to jail, facing a trial, paying a fine and then going right back to work under the threat of arrest again! This is what many chiropractors had to face.
So, I took out loans, moved to Georgia and then to California until I graduated and became Doctor Lara! I still get a kick out of that since I never thought I’d be a doctor in my life. Before chiropractic, I got a degree in film and television because I felt the need to create something inspiring and uplifting to replace the depressing, misogynistic and indoctrinating crap we’re exposed to each day. I quickly realized that my dream of making the world a better place would not succeed if I was to make it in film and television. This could also be why my parents didn’t want to spend another $100,000 on my DC degree. But, Chiropractic saved me. Not from any pain or postural misalignment, but spiritually. I had found my calling! My dreams no longer weighted me down, they guided me, inspired me and cleared the path to my success!
So, what happened? I find myself now in a place where I’ve built a wall around my passion as if to protect it. I’m struggling to figure out how to run a business and take care of a family while still keeping my passion for chiropractic alive. I’m left wondering how I ended up here. What am I doing wrong? What am I doing right? All I want is to help people feel better, to come alive inside and discover their passion! I believe that if everyone does what they were meant to do in this life, then there would be harmony on Earth! Everyone should discover what brings them joy and peace and live their lives accordingly. I feel that through chiropractic care, it could happen for them.
As Marianne Williamson wrote for Nelson Mandela, “Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
It’s time to tear down the wall, let my light shine, thus allowing others to let their light shine!